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[reargunner]

ᴛᴇxᴛ | ᴀᴜᴅɪᴏ | ᴠɪᴅᴇᴏ | ᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ



Leave a message if you want. I'll get back to you when I pick my comm up.

Or I won't.

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[reargunner]

Oh, don't be a fucking ass, what was the point of this whole thing if I didn't give a shit about that?

[He went to effort here. He wouldn't even bother if he just wanted to write everything off.]

Just, fuck, stop fucking talking to me like I'm your goddamn grandma.

[weaponwithoutpurpose]

[Jacob blinks.]

My Nana would have smacked me upside the head for talking to her that way. But yeah. I get it.

You gonna stop talking to me like I'm just some random fucking guy?

[reargunner]

Only if you're gonna quit acting like I'm gonna bite you every time I raise my damn voice.

[He doesn't bite people anymore. Unless they ask.]

If I see you look at me like a kicked puppy one more time I'm gonna start talking to Mae instead.

[weaponwithoutpurpose]

Mae does bite. [He reminds him of it with a shrug.]

You want me to not look like a kicked puppy? Then stop fucking kicking me when you're frustrated about other shit. Kick me when I deserve it. Like earlier. For ignoring you.

[reargunner]

Look.

[He turns around fully, finally, most of the irritation eased off his expression.]

If you can't deal with me lashing out at you when whatever I'm pissed at has nothing to do with you, then you're gonna have a fucking bad time with me, bud. 'Cause it's gonna happen, and maybe you get a fuckin' apology after if I feel bad about it, but in the moment, fucking no. And you know what, I'm self aware enough by now to know about it.

[A shrug.]

I have a fucking temper. I'm working on it. Right now it is what it fucking is. And you know, people keep giving a shit about me anyway, so I guess I got more plus points than not.

[weaponwithoutpurpose]

The 'if you feel bad about it' piece is bullshit, Alexei. Own up to it when you hurt people. Cuz yeah, they keep giving a shit about you, and that's good. That's something to hold onto, but they don't deserve your misplaced anger just because they allow it.

[He shakes his head, wishing he had a whole carton of cigarettes now.]

I can take it. And I will. But at least make a goddamn effort to use a single coping skill first.

[reargunner]

You done trying to lecture me? 'Cause you have no idea what kinds of things I've been doing or how I've been trying to cope.

[Yes, he knows, because he hasn't told him. But he hasn't exactly had reason to.]

We had this conversation six months ago I would've already blown up at you five times and possibly threatened murder. I'll own up if I feel like whoever pissed me the fuck off didn't see what was coming and keep pushing.

[Because that does keep happening...]

And that's where I'm gonna draw a line.

[weaponwithoutpurpose]

[Jacob just nods.]

We aren't talking about that. We're talking about the times that you blow up for reasons that aren't the other person's fault.

It's hard to admit when you're fucking wrong, Alexei.

But yeah, I'm done.

[reargunner]

Not as hard as you fucking think.

[He has, in fact, done it quite a few times when he's blown up at people on the Barge who didn't deserve his anger.]

But good. You can finish your walk and find me again later if you want. Not really in the mood for playing fetch.

[A glance down.]

No offence, Mae.

[weaponwithoutpurpose]

[Mae just wags her tail. She just likes it when he says her name.]

See you around.